That's awful what you've been through saffie. You've done so well.
I messed up and could kick myself.
I'be been living like this is a building site since this happened and builders everywhere, kitchen ceiling just caved in, builders had to speak to H and then put the phone on to me. He was so obnoxious, what is it? I just had enough.
I said what is with your attitude to me, I said despite what happens to us, I don't appreciate the way you are handling this. He actually said handling what.
I said oh grow up. Look at your behaviour, messing around, being cheeky to me, he said it's not messing around. I said yeah you believe that if you like, maybe we did have problems that you didn't share in counselling but the fact is you didn't come to me and I'm fed up with you trying to make out that it was ok to mess around and text XX.
I said I no longer care because I need to move on but don't for a minute think you will manipulate me into covering for you.
He said We'll meet on Monday, I said manipulation again, trying to protect her and yourself.
I know I fecked up but really I've had enough.
I'm so sick of the lies. I was great yesterday and I know I will be fine again, I know fine well I'll be ok without him, it just the actual getting to that point.
arghhhhh
Way I see it, if he was serious about us, he would come round tonight, obviously he is still seeing her. He is actually protecting her.
Feel like telling him to come round right now was what difference does the weekend make You're both right. I'm going to find out this weekend where she stays
