Portland Dad, I think that's why I am more calm. I have asked for her forgiveness and I have forgiven myself. I just don't want to forget what I've learned for reasons stated earlier. And you may be right, any forgiveness given may be in fact transitory. But there has to be a first step. So, I continue to have a PMA, stand up for myself, work on my body, educate my mind and provide a positive environment for my daughter. There will be some difficult times because of this, I know. I don't like that this is happening but unfortunately I am not driving the train at this time. So I will continue to post and attempt to change myself for the better.
M-41 ex-W-40 Together--17 years SS-20 D-14 Bomb--2 Feb 09 WAW--6 Feb 09 Officially divorced on 2 Jun 2010!!! ex-W has a boyfriend 8 Jun 2010!!! Off we go into the wild blue yonder!!!!
