{{{Pearl}}} LOL..no way..you are way too sweet for that to be your normal personality
{{{Sam}}} You know..I will HAVE to try that some time..I look at it when I go to the store and I don't remember what is all in it, but it always catches my attention, but I've NOT tried it!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Sorry for the day. I have one or two days a week like that - mostly after an encounter with my H. I usually can't wait until I get home from work when no one else is home and just do what I want to work it out.
By the way, D and I love that movie - we have it - I was going to suggest "Enchanted April". Just saw it over the weekend - thought it was appropriate for our sitch. Elizabethtown was great for it off the beaten pathway in it view - kind of like the way we process things in real time but pretend we don't.
How do you do 12 hour days??? I did that long time ago but I was doing 2 pt jobs and going to school then. (In my free time I took care of my ill mother, two kids et al.)
I admit your musings are curious and I wish you would add details if appropriate or complete sentences.LOL just kidding.
Only you, and I truly mean that, only you could turn her bad mood around in the span of one fairly short post. You have such an incredible abundance of positive energy inside of you. I have seen it all along and it is carrying you through your process.
But even more incredible, is the way you share that positive energy with so many of us here on the board.
{{{Kassie}}} I should NOT complain about doing 12 hr days as I only do them a few times a week while a lot of gals I work with do them so much more..but I'm a lazy bum and I don't like them LOLOL
{{{{{V}}}}}} YOU are so amazingly sweet..I was reading your post last night and was like "wow..what a great way to end my night"..thank you so much for those sweet and kind words You also have such a great energy that you share..so thank you right back!
AND..funny enough, as I was reading that I had just finished some ice cream LOLOL Ben and Jerry's Half Baked..good stuff
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Have you guys tried Ben & Jerry's American Cone Dream or Creme' Brulee. Yummy !!
Oh & Tawnya, I can go 0 to (b) itch in 1.2 seconds. All I have to do is think about H & how he's blocking all our money accounts.
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
ha {{{Smart}}} LOLOL..yeah somehow they DO make it easier for that to happen don't they?? LOLOL
Actually funny my son and I looked at the Americacone Dream (he loves Stephen Colbert) but I haven't tried either one of them! I will have to add them to the list right after Sam's Phish Food suggestion
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Well funny I read Pearl's thread first cause I too had a weird sad night and morning.
Journaling
Last night, as I was talking to my son, I was saying something about how I'd rather be at the beach or something and he was like "yeah that would be nice, but I don't want to move away from dad". So, even tho I don't have any stipulations about moving in my settlement agreement, I see now that I cannot even entertain those possibilities due to my son's feelings, so I'm shackled to my husband's moves and whims still..sigh..that's an annoying feeling. Of course I COULD move and my son would adjust, but the mom guilt thing would probably never allow me to do it..I guess only time will tell on that one..
It just hit me then that I can see a "power struggle", not that my hub or myself are doing, but that I will FEEL, like "does my son want to be with my hub more than me", that kind of thing. I'm sure there will be times, esp because he's a boy, that he WOULD rather be with my hub than me. Then I think, at some point will he want to live with my hub more than me, esp if and when he remarries with OW and her kids and they will be "stable"?? I dunno..again just things that were running thru my mind..and again bridges I suppose I'll cross if and when they come.
THEN..I guess since that was on my mind, I had a dream about my hub being here, not "HERE" but like here doing stuff around the house and I was just thinking that I missed him being here. Funny, tho, in my dream it was still him being like "you didn't take care of this..which was why I'm here doing it" or something..so LOLOL..I guess that says a lot right there So, I don't really miss HIM being here..maybe as Pearl said, I miss the possibility of what could have been..but what WAS and what IS I certainly don't want..because I know there is SO much better out there waiting for me!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
So now we're linked by crappy nights too? LOL! Sorry, I wish that wasn't the case.
I am lucky that I can pick up and move and never have to see or speak to xBF again. I know it's difficult for parents being connected to their exes forever through the kids.
It's normal for S12 to want to stay close to his dad and you're a great mom for keeping this in mind when making your plans. But remember, it's not forever. S12 will grow up and be on his own and you can always move to the beach then!
Sorry to hear about that dream. But sounds like H is still the same whether in real life or dreams. Glad to hear you know you deserve better!
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
LOLOL {{{Pearl}}} yes we seem to really be the same person hehe
Yeah..it was a weird dream, made me sad for a few seconds when I woke up but then I Remembered the dream and I was like "wait" LOL..that was still bad even in the dream
So..I'm good now..and that IS one nice aspect for you if you really don't want to talk to xbf you don't have to
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Yeah, I commented to Pearl, that it means you have a heart - unfortunately, this really explains the saying, "Nice guys finish last" - and it's because we wouldn't hurt our kids to get to our ex's.
I can't remember how many times I've changed my plans to watch kids for W, or keep them longer so she can study - but you know, you can take advantage of me all you want if it means me getting more time with the kids! I worry about W moving closer to OM who is almost 2 hours away.
Hang in there, {{{Tawnya}}}, these moments will become less of the bitter and more of the sweet for both of us.
