Hey LonelyRzr,
It's all so crazy and it's so hard to turn off the brain, to stop the stratigizing, and impossible to stop the hope of being in a new marriage with the love of your life where you are both happy independently and together.
I think, all things considered, you are doing great.
I agree with a lot of the advice given but I also understand why you left. Sometimes, you have to go against the advice of people that care about you (and I do believe everyone here is in your corner and does want to see you guys make it) because it's what you need to do to respect yourself. I left for the same reasons as you and then for some that are me specific.
You are DBing your butt off. Proud of you man.