Never say Never; it's worth the fight!

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(((((Treee)))))

I think you've beaten yourself up enough. Listen to Jeff. Pick yourself up and move forward----for yourself.

I stopped asking H for help with anything. I did this quite some time ago. It empowers me, and helps me understand that I can do anything without him. You need to get away, and you can't depend on H to take your son now. Like Jeff said, find another option -- another place for him to stay for a few days.

I think going dark will help you (if you can do it----I personally suck at it). You could always just pretend (and I do mean PRETEND---no ideas here) that H is dead. That you don't have a choice----there is no way to reach him even if you wanted/needed to.....................