Ian, I know what you are telling me. You are telling me this is not healthy for me anymore and I have got to realise it and let go...
I am thinking the same thing. Yesterday, while we were having lunch, I realised the reason we are in this sitch for so long is that neither one of us has the courage to pull the trigger. For a while, a long while, my hesitation, my denial to do it was because I loved him soooo much, for him it was the feeling of not being sure about his choices.
Now, we both are scared to say this is the end because it will mean, we are entering the next phase of our lives, a phase where we will no longer be able to accuse each other for our unhappiness...
I am still having a hard time with this. Maybe it is what my C said. I am haunted by the idea "I am not good enough, I could do better". It still feels stupid. K
