I'm so sorry. I haven't been following many threads these days, and I didn't know. You're right--I do have my health, and that is something to be grateful for. Most days, really, I have the strength to look for the blessings, and I find them. But every now and then I hit the wall, I fall back into grief. And I know this is normal, and I know there will be good days and not-so-good ones. And I know that there will just be days when the grief for all that I have lost--and it is most of my life as I knew it--just has to be dealt with. I just try to push it down and get through each day, because it feels overwhelming at times, but if I don't recognize it and slog thru it I'll never get to the other side. At this point I know that it's a process, not a cliff I'm falling off, so it's not as scary but it is still painful.
I will keep you in my prayers. I'm sure you feel--as I do at times--I'm tired of being told how strong I am; just give me someone to lean on for just a little bit so I don't have to be so strong all the time. And yes, I know I can--and have been--leaning on God. But sometimes it would be nice to have someone with some skin on, too. I wish the same for you.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012
