Divorce looming #6

[K4D]

I am trying to stick with a plan here. I was getting really stressed on the programming languages because I was struggling with them. I had decided I would learn them and/or sql server. I switched over to sql server and I am following it much better. Even when I got stuck twice, I was able to research the answers online and not give up.

My past is with access databases, so it makes sense that I am following sql better. I'm gonna study the heck out of it since it just seems to be more up my ally.

I am trying to make a change here and follow through with plans. I was starting to worry because I wasn't picking up the programming. Maybe I just need to get sql down first and go back to the programming when I am more comfortable with it.

What I am saying is some of that worrying led me to thinking what if I can't succeed. And I started stupid worries about what if W doesn't come back either.

But I am feeling much better and yall REALLY got through to me. I'm staying the course and will only return if I get offered a job. I won't go back without a job. I know that would not look good and would just be another flakey appearance on my part.

Thanks for sticking with me yall. I know I have been way to wishy washy in my decisions. I am going to do my best to stick with what is best for me and my kids.

The nice thing about sql is I can just totally focus on it since I am really following it. I was having trouble focusing on the programming languages and then would start to think about W. That isn't happening with SQL. What also makes it easier is it is more visual and I learn better with visual.

Kevin