Mindblank #2 - "Stuck as friends..."

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Good God! I can automate high through-put screening labs in drug discovery labs with sophisticated instruments, robotics and software, and can't shut off a CEILING FAN

wow, what is it that you do? Or what is your profession? sounds very complicated!

well, I'm very glad you read the 5LLs, that will help you much. Have you read For Women Only? you definitely have to read it. Other than that, w/o knowing your total story, I am guessing that you need to start loving yourself, and liking yourself, and enjoying your life again. Do not rely on your H for your Happiness as that is between you and God. And just because something feels unnatural doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. You need to do 180s. If you guys are great friends right now, that is really really good. the intimacy will come, and if this is a 180, then I suggest you be forward sometime and initiate some kind of touch. It doesn't have to be ML, but it could be a back rub, or just anything. BUT, you cannot whatsoever have any expectations, and you cannot let any rejection dissappoint you (or let him see the dissappointment) even if he rejects you, it doesn't mean it's a bad thing, he's just still confused, but what he will see is a woman who is confident about herself and forward behind closed doors, and that is what a man wants. Confidence surpasses beauty ultimately. A soso looking girl who feels great about herself and presents herself well, will be better received than a great looking girl who thinks nothing of herself. IMHO that is, and from what I've experienced and read.

So, to me, it sounds like you have a lot of hope to have a wonderful M.