Well thank you for the encouragement. Today was not a great day, but it was far from our worst. Most of the day she was not here and for the short time that she was I was working on my work for class. Things got bad when she called and said she was taking the kids to see a movie and then thought I was mad at her. I told her I wasn't, but I couldn't hear her. I tried to call her from the car, but she didn't answer. I assumed that she didn't hear her phone (sometimes she can't hear it inside of the car) so I called back a few times. Finally she answered and they were in the theater and she had to drag the kids out into the hall with her to do so. I apologized and didn't realize that they were going to the movie right away and just needed to ask her if she had deposited a check so that I could get gas.
When I spoke to her later on my break, she was telling me all about the bills she paid with the tax return, but it was back to this "mine" and "yours" talk. I answered her questions and left it at that.
Like I said, it wasn't a bad day, but not a good one either. The way I see it, we'll have plenty of days like that divorce or not, so I'm not about to let it get to me.
But other than that, I'm doing well. I haven't brought anything up to her in regards to the D since the lawyer debacle and I'm going to try to let this ride for another week or two. That'll give me time to feel things out and reorganize my plans.
As far as #4 goes, I'm planning on having that discussion with her eventually. She doesn't seem so solid planted on the D road right now, but I'm confident enough in that to rock that boat yet. There is so much that we could do to plant ourselves on more stable and solid ground, but it has to be a team-effort. But if she is wavering on the fence right now (which is how it appears to me), I don't want to open my mouth and push her over the wrong side. Right now I need to concentrate on myself, doing a lot of praying, and spend a lot more time listening and watching than speaking. (which in case you can't tell from my long posts, I have a hard time with.)
