Oh my life is far from over. I am just saying that the pain will be with me forever, I cannot forget it, it is like the pin in my jaw and my cracked ribs. I go on not thinking about hem, but every now and then, the pain comes back and I remember.
My life is going on just fine. I fall back on my emotions every now and then, for the most part it passes like a bad cough. My D21 and I went out together, just me and her, to talk. She is very proud of me, especially since the holidays, she can't get over how ahead of everything i am. She says she has talked to her brother and her sisters. they believe if the W came back to me, it would ruin me. thats how far up the hlll I am. I am enjoying myself, my time with my kids, our connection, time with my friends and my life. the new job prospect, thinking about what I will do about this and what I will do about that. I am not concerned with her, her life, her friends, her anything....She is who she wants to be, good for her...I hope she is happy where she is, I hope she spends as much of her life being happy in her world as she can be...She has no connection here...Not with me...Not now....God is in control of this and I am doing as I am doing...As you said, her life will show her her own consequences of what she has done, God save her soul if she ever does....
You know 25Year, I don't even like hearing about her now, it just pisses me off. She throws all of her life and all the things she is doing to her daughters, doing this doing that....Her daughters are not impressed. I have impressed them they tell me, but I tell them, this is not a competition. I had to grow up and become responsible or take the pipe...I have chose to live out my life, without her, and keep my family tight and close, to be there for them, and let them know I am even stronger tofday than yesterday...
