Instead of deciding the result you want God to give you, why not ask Him for the strength to handle whatever His plan is? Accept his will but ask for "guidance to know it" and "Strength to handle it" and then turn it over to Him and DON'T TAKE IT BACK...Leave it in God's hands. You keep taking it back.
Also I hope you are keeping the "satan has a hold on him" talk to yourself as I have never heard of a WAH coming back b/c of that. Also if he is "forgiven", then drop the "make him see he is wrong" b/c if you want to be "right" okay you win. But you want to be happy, correct? Do you see that You are literally telling God what to do?
So maybe you need to stop making oyur h so evil and "wrong", and instead make yourself ready for life as it comes your way--with or without your h. "Be a woman only a fool would leave"...
You say he's an alcoholic and has "massive problems"-- but you are fighting like mad to keep him even as he is now. Why? Are you so afraid of being alone that you cannot even allow yourself the luxury of reality, so that you can stare hard at the life you truly had, the M that eventually came to be, and see that you know there WERE some problems that you are better off without??
I think when the LBSer starts to really truly realize the benefits of being without the WAS (even if only a few benefits exist), it helps so much. And you begin to really GAL and then...little by little...the WAS notices. Does not mean they'll come back but it sure is a mandatory step to it. It does get better. It really does. No matter what happens with the M. And though none of us can tell you what will make your h come back or IF he will come back, many of us can tell you what will push him away. I see a lot of it in your posts. So, you can take the helmet off now, as the 2 x 4 is over. Good luck,
(( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
