Fortunately, I have a very busy schedule so it nice not to have the parental responsibility.
So things are changing in my situation.
Ex is clearly depressed, stating to the kids he has moments of wanting to kill himself.
He is aware that I know he has said this.
We had our longest conversation in 3 years, approximatley 2.5 hours. He is clearly miserable, admits this as well as stating that he gets physically ill when he comes by the house because it reminds him of what he has lost.
No apologies, expressions of wanting to come back, remorse, etc.. though.
I feel though (call it intuition) that things are majorly changing.
I don't necessary know if that is good or bad.
I am staying very busy, taking more hours at work.
Joined a bible study.
Not thinking about my future with ex in it anymore.
Making plans that just include me and the kids.
Ex has threatened to take me back to court because he is not making the kind of money he use to and he feels the child support and maintenence should be reduced.
No sign that he has done this - thank god.
Overall, I feel I am in a good place. I think I see things more logically than before. I am trying to look more toward my future than toward my past.
Life does not have to be all about drama.
It does not have to be about an adulterous ex husband unless I focus on the adulterous ex husband.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
