Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

Hmm... I DO NOT think she's stepped outside the marriage. It's hard to see that from what I've posted, but I really do not.

I don't want to know the things either. It is unacceptable for her to accept gifts from other men. That's a boundary. She's been respecting that as much as I can tell. I'm not going to ask beyond that. Why? Because I do not want to know. Seriously. Think about it. If I knew something I didn't like, what would I gain? If there was nothing (Seriously, my instinct tells me there isn't beyond the acceptance of the gift and I do believe she ended the amorous longing he had towards her) then being curious or jealous about it brings me nothing either.

I want her back.

I want her to be honest because otherwise she's not back.

Anything else really doesn't matter to be honest.

The movie? Yes, we've had those discussions. I still maintain that it is between a married couple. Regardless of what is going on, my children deserve to know my beliefs. I haven't changed my beliefs and I don't intend to on subjects like that.

Make sense?

Meanwhile, patience and unconditional love are my only ways forward. I struggle to get there. I am truly relieved to see her healing from the pain she was at. I am truly happy to see that healing take place. I am very sad that it is still the way it is between us.

I am and will remain,

Hopeful AJ.

P.S. I had to give up on the skydiving idea. For now ;0)