Ok, last thread locked up. I feel like I may be spending too much time on here but it seems to be one of the few things I am getting comfort from. Not too bad of a day considering my wife has not called and said she wants to come home.
I went and saw my parents for a few hours. My mom kept trying to ram advice down my throat. I politely thanked her and asked that she relax a little bit as I was uptight enough as is. Don't think it helped but hey, I'm trying to stand up for myself. No emails and no phone calls from the wife. It does feel a little better when you don't have to see them or talk to them, I guess. I mean if this is what's going to happen, then I guess that's the best way, right? I did think about her a lot today. I know she has a lot of faults but hey so do I. The thought of having to learn someone else is absolutely frightening. I am still hoping for a miracle. Wondering if I should ignore her if she calls today. I want her to miss me but I don't want her to get used to the idea and look elsewhere if she has not already. I tried what everyone suggested and listened to a little harder music today and read a little bit of Anxious to Please. Wow, it describes me almost perfectly. It's gonna be tough to transition from this but I will give it my all. I honestly think if I had not been this way, then the wife and I never would have been married??? Purely speculation on my part but the wife is pretty reactionary and assertive so I may be right.
Wondering when I'm going to start enjoying the simple things again...
M-41 ex-W-40 Together--17 years SS-20 D-14 Bomb--2 Feb 09 WAW--6 Feb 09 Officially divorced on 2 Jun 2010!!! ex-W has a boyfriend 8 Jun 2010!!! Off we go into the wild blue yonder!!!!
