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Its pretty weird because I am really introverted and quiet but with this sitch I am the exact opposite and emotional as hell.

Emotional as hell is normal. These situations have a way of bringing that out in all of us. I did same thing.

Also, C said that she had real hope that my W would eventually come around and that just based on one meeting and the answers W gave and willingness to discuss and just be there was a good sign????

Let this go. It's expectations of the future. You have to detach so you aren't concerned with the outcome.

Tonight I went to the movie with a friend and saw Watchmen (really weird) and got my mind off of everything for a couple of hours.

This is good. GAL and keep doing it.

Also, I know that I need to stop snooping but it is very hard because I am the type that wants to know whats going on. But I also know that I can't let her know that I know and it makes it even worse just internalizing everything. My goal for tomorrow is that I will not look at cell phone records or facebook or OM's keylogger at all. Also, I will not call or text W tomorrow and will only talk to her at our MC tomorrow afternoon.

The need for information is the illusion that you'll somehow control the situation. Let this go. You have no control. I know because I did it too. It will just drive you crazy. Forget what she's doing and take care of yourself. It's the only way.