My situation #9

[steady]

Yeah Mike I don't think there will be some kind of epiphany...but then again, you never know. Everything is still the same - I'm in the house, we talk, I take care of all kinds of things with the kids and around the house. She can go out with her friends once in a while and I watch the kids. When I finally leave, all that will change.

I am focused on moving forward - but my biggest focus right now is keeping my mind at what I happen to be doing in the present moment. Otherwise my mind wanders into the past and into the future.

She has been very civil since our court date last week so it's not been too bad around the house. Last night she went to another Al-anon meeting and she seems to like it. She's meeting people who are living with active alcoholics. She mentioned one particular young girl whose husband is drinking and treating her like cr@p. I said well you never know some people change.

So that's the story. Still moving in the direction it has when she said she wanted a D. The difference is I'm working really hard at detaching and keeping my mind from trying to predict the future.

And thanks again Mike. As always, you are one of my rocks that I cling to when I seem to be drowning.