It seems to be working.... sometimes #2

[sandycay]

Well I survived. I found out today as H and I were talking that after he sat in the waiting room for 1 1/2 hours and asked how much longer it would be the girl told him it would be about 4-5 hours. HE WENT HOME! I can't believe it. My feelings are really hurt. We were told that it would be only a couple of hours but that turned into about 7 hours. So he told me today that he already had sat in the waiting room for hour and half and figured I was in good hands and left. Now we live about 25 minutes drive time away. Across a huge bridge that has been known to shut down if accidents happen or if a jumper is on the bridge. (for hours) I can't believe he didn't just like go to target or a restaurant close by stay on that side of the bridge. I can't help but wonder if I was the OW he wouldn't have left her there. He has taken care of me faily well, but I could tell his "heart" wasn't into it. I feel he just has accepted that in order for him to do the right thing he is "stuck" with me and not his true love. He is nice to me but he always has been.

I am disappointed about my surgery day. I didn't say much to him about it but I know he knew it bothered me. I just said well I'm glad nothing happened and I was alone. He said, "well there was a surgeon, 2 nurse, and anstegeologist...what could I have done? Okay, this is all true..but he told me he would be there. I would never leave someone who was having sugery. Am I wrong or crazy or is that just a sensitive woman thang?