I have been working on becoming whole again and I AM hoping that Mrs. Cinco will like the man I am finally trying to become. I wish for my transformation to be a good influence on our marriage more than anything. The ironic part of my journey is, while I was hoping for passion to return to my marriage, I discovered the reason that there was no passion is because I had lost my own passion for life and living.
I still have no way of knowing if Mrs. Cinco will respond to my changes and join me in my new passionate life. I do see small things in her that hint that she might... here's hoping as you say. My persistence in making our physical relationship important has made a big difference so far. Looking back on the last year, I can see how much better we are towards one another than the year before. We would go for weeks without touching at all before (except for maybe a side-by-side standing hug and a pat).
The plan now is to get help from others. Find a new direction for my career that really had gone stale (again no passion). I have always done things on my own thinking that I needed no outside help. I am reaching out for that help now.
I'm meeting with a career coach that I met through the church job networking group next week. Also I will make a call to the IC I found and get things started there as well. What can I say, a big problem of mine is procrastination.
The plan beyond getting my life back on track is to no longer accept passionless sex. My not drawing the line on this one years ago is what side tracked me to begin with. Ain't gonna let that happen again.
I am praying too that the end result is a solid marriage again. If that does not happen I did my best with no regrets.
