Dropping the rope

[peacetoday]

I continur to be dim
it is hard
H is also dim..he comes less
I feel so torn about the whole thing
I didnt want to accept that frienship that we established in place of out M--it is unacceptable..I will be cordial thats it

so it has to be all or nothing in this
H seems like he is also willing to give me up in friendship and move into his new life with OW
I dont know if he feels anything else about this..he seems all to willing to move on

I fear he will disconnct more from the kids as a way to protect himself as he is showing less connection with them
he knows I dont want OW in picture with my kids and she will eventually meet them if they stay together
so MY STBX has let go of everything financially, and now eevn his kids to continue with her


what hurts the most is that he has picked her over me and our kids
our D is almost complete
I look back on these 2 years of how hard ive worked and yet i still cant let go
why?
peace