To be honest I'm not sure if I have anything to lose.
Like I said I have never really slammed the door and would probably still consider another try if XH made a move in that direction.
Like we all used to talk about though, I would have to see actions and desire and remorsefullness and all that from him for that to even be considered.
Right now, today he does not seem to possess any of those qualities but has made some obvious steps in my direction, whatever his motive may be.
If you subscribe to the theories of the Six Stages of MLC and the Reconnection thread he appears to be at the beginning stages of acceptance and this is where the LBS is not to jump and push and otherwise scare the MLC back into the tunnel.
I am now somewhat wondering what he is thinking but over the years have learned not to obssess about unanswered questions.
So, I guess my loaded answer is that no, right now I have nothing to lose, but I feel I may lose the potential of something good, if I screw it up now.
Although, neither XH nor I have been very good at the direct approach in the past. It would be something different.
