Hey, Sunshine! I hope you are sleeping well tonight.
I know you are and have been trying like crazy. After I wrote back another thought hit me. Is there a part of your personality that has led you to connect w/people who aren't good for you in the past? Is there a pattern you can connect to?
I'm asking this b/c I had to discover that I was playing the role of a rescuer in my past relationships. I'd always pick out women who were "broken" in some way b/c I subconsciously thought I could fix them or save them.
I didn't realize it up front, of course, but once the question was posed to me about what did my XW have in common w/all the other women I've been involved with or interested in, I was able to see the pattern after giving it some good thought.
So, this may be an avenue you'd think of visiting to see if there is a pattern that can be avoided in the future. You may have done this already, but I'm throwing it out there just in case. You know, something to chew on and either digest or spit out.