Glam, How did h's interview go? I hope it went well for him.
You really have come a long way. It will take some time, but your h will figure things out.
The most important thing is for you to take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.