Hi ... I am and I do ... everyday ... and I'm tired ... but still, I am and I do.
A lot of stresses are happening:
a.) my work has me working 6a-3p or 2p-11p and a lot of times split days off. b.) after d, I bought a new house and now I'm literally paying for it. $$$ financial issues that I have to clear up. big money, but I did it myself, and I'm taking care of it myself. c.) both of my parents were very ill from Sept. and now just getting better. my Dad just feeling more independent. my mom just had another operation last week. d.) in february my heat exchange broke on my burner. I had soot damage all over my house. big insurance issue. e.) I have to get a new furnace. f.) I have developed very bad pain in my shoulders and neck due to stress and physical labor from my job. g.) I'm going to a chiropractor.
I am taking care of these issues by myself and trying to be positive and feel positive and be strong at the same time. So, you must understand that sometimes I just don't think I can do it. Some days, snapping out of it is easier than others, and sometimes, I just break down and feel sorry for myself.
I have to get to my chiropractor appt.
Thanks for your encouragement. Honestly, I will push through with a smile on my face, but I feel crummy.
Sorry it took me so long to write. I've had my own issues to deal with, gosh darnit. I was only able to stay dark for two weeks, and actually called him yesterday and the day before. He asked me if I got the "proposal" yet (marital settlement agreement). I said I wasn't going to talk about that. He got mad. Oh well, too bad.
Also, he said he wasn't happy yet, that he wouldn't be happy "until I get my life back together." Ho hum. He also said he has a parasite, "from the drinking water." Yeah right????
Oh, and btw, my H also told me when he left that "We have nothing in common." He said that about everyone he's ever known. I think it is an antisocial behavioral problem. But, Laurie could probably say more about that than I can.
Hey, I feel you as a sister in spirit. Take care of you. And maybe if we can both drop the rope together, life will move on...
Thank you. Somedays are harder than others, somedays it's easier. Somedays, I have to dig deep down to hold onto hope. But ... from the bottom of my heart ... thank you for your positive encouragement.
Dear JJ, When I read over your posts, I see how you are able to refocus and get back on track (with some help from your friend, SLH). I think the "real" JJ, is the one that creates positive goals and then follows through. When you have a plan, it seems you have more of a "can-do" perspective. Am I reading that right?
By the way, StillLovesHim is a gem, as she is walking alongside you in a very supportive way. Thanks, SLH!
JJ, if you knew for certain that A was not going to be around this month and there was no way you could contact him or be able to connect (let's assume he's in Iceland :o), would you go about these last 2 weeks of "going dark" differently than the first 2 weeks? I would encourage you to take some time to really ponder that. After you ponder, let me know, OK?
Cold snowy hugs to you! (Spring is coming, right?) Laurie
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OMGosh, Laurie didn't respond to me or my post. I feel - as I wonder - am I don't something or saying something wrong so as to be ignored? Laurie, please don't ignore me. If I say something wrong, or do something wrong, please tell me.
JJ Just relax. Work on making you the best you. Be the person you want to be. Be the person who makes you happy, not any one else. I think that is going to be the best way to attract people, and not just significant others, but friends as well. You are so articulate and well thought out. You do have so much to offer and live for. You are working so hard on various things in your life, continue to do that and really, what if Laurie's hypothetical is right? What if he were in a far away place for a long time frame....How would you handle that?
Hi ... thanks kids ... I went to the masseuse today. It is an experience I would definitely recommend this to anyone, stressed or just taking care of yourself. The first time was 1-1/2 hours. Ahhhhhh! Soooooo niiiiiice. I felt like I was on a natural high when she was done.
Now, I'm listening to soundscapes, reading a book, have my fire going and my candles lit. I'm trying to maintain the relaxation.
I am going to do what you and Laurie recommend. My pattern is to get 'wigged' out ... but I know that I'm doing the right thing now.
I just finished another good book. I have my eye on another one. I'm going to take a yoga class next Tuesday. Look forward to it! I have this weekend off. I want to do a craft project. Hopefully, my friends will come over on Sunday to sit by my fireplace in my backyard.
I got a lot of stuff accomplished in these past few days...even though I whined through most of it.
I geniunely appreciate your support and encouragement. Have a good night!
Hi Laurie ... big cold and rainy hugs back to you!!!
It's true. I do better when I have a list in front of me. I forgot to add to my list to SLH that I have PMS!!!! Today, I feel a lot better...
I loved the masseuse lady! One-1/2 hours of just meeee! It was awesome. I'm going to try out the yoga there. Her office is in a renovated Victorian mansion. It has a very simple spa look to it with Victorian character. I wanted to stay for the night. I'm trying to recreate and continue the experience in my little cape house.
I'm going to pretend he is in Iceland. I am going to do the opposite of what I want to do. I have the weekend off, and I'm going to invite the girlfriends over to sit my the fire on Sunday afternoon. I'm going to write a list, too. One thing is going to the Mall...check out the clothes...
I'm pondering...:)...
Spring is coming. I bought my friend some fragrant flowers. They reminded me of Spring so much that I had to get them.
