So are you implying that the life you are living now is "natural"?
"I understand that it is the best thing to do. But, it just doesn't feel "right"."
Again.. are you implying that you are doing the "right" thing now.
I have been in a very similar place with the FB thing. It comes down to wanting to do it (leave "it" (Read=crap) behind) because you know it is not the best thing for you. Not because someone tells you to do it. It comes down to that choice of what is best for you.
I have seen pictures of "her".
I have gotten phone calls. One that woke me up at 4am.
I have heard it all and seen it all (I saw it when I followed her)
Once I said.. enough. Guess what?? It stopped. Not right away but it was a very fast decline. I got better.. I could eat.. I could sleep. I could go to work. I could go out and have fun. I could enjoy my kids. I could enjoy my "family" (Mom, Dad, etc)
It was a choice I made to not involve myself in things that I could avoid. If you look at it that way.. do you think you are creating "drama"? It never fails.. and one of the biggest things I "see" here (DB.com) is people fighting themselves.. and not wanting to change that.
"He doesn't want ANY kind of R with me, that has become painfully obvious."
Yet your "fight" is still there. If I have told you once.. I have told you a million times.. you need to get Blindsided1 on solid ground and thinking clearly.. before you can ever "try" to "reconcile". I know that's what you want. And it is always a possibility. I will assure you though.. it will never happen if you keep on like you are. In the end.. it is gonna leave you bitter and hurt. I don't want to "see" that.
Keep your head up.
And Always..
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
