I'm not going to call you a pussy, but you do need to stop this chitt. It does you no good and why are you putting so much energy into beating yourself up. Your a great dad, you have great kids and you had a great weekend. Focus on the positives and stop fu**ing dwelling on the negatives.
That is your W's doing so stop letting her control you. Remember you have the POWER to be happy or sad, to think your a great person or a loser and to control your future or let others do that for you. Which ones do you want?
Now get the fu** out of your head and take back control ou YOUR LIFE.