Slowly but surely - detach and 180

[hopefulinEG]

From W's friend that told me about the affair I know that W and OW's relationship is very stormy. I now realize that all the anger and bitchyness that W has is really about the OW and not about me. I think she is pissed/unhappy about that and trying to pick fights with me to get her anger out. That makes it easier to ignore it and/or validate her feelings. She has definitely been surprised when I didn't take her bate.

I am also feeling a lot of sadness right now. I have a hard time not crying at work or in front of my children or W. I know this will get better.

I am also so much wishing that she will realize OW is so bad for her and will come and confess to me and want to get back together. Even with all this betrayal I can't stop wanting her back. I guess that is a good thing for a possible reconciliatin later but not any easier for not being sad all the time.

-Catherine