MLC or OW My Heart is Ripped Apart

[pearlharbr]

Everyone backslides abby. Don't beat yourself up too much, just resolve to do better next time.

Why didn't you go for the walk by yourself? Unless it's for safety reasons I think it's a great idea. Gets you out of the house, some fresh air and exercise. I go for a 4-mile walk every day and now I'm hooked. I always walked sporadically, but when the first bomb was dropped I started going every day. I used that time to clear my head and work out my anger and frustration. I found that the first 45 minutes I was very emotional but by the last 15 I had calmed down. It did so much for my mental state I wasn't even concerned with the exercise aspect (but it certainly helps keep the weight off).

I know it's difficult for many people to do things by themselves, i.e. movie, eating out, classes, etc. But going for a walk by yourself is a great first step. Then you'll find yourself more comfortable doing what you want and not having to find another person to accompany you. Just put on your favorite music and bop down the sidewalk. I know I must look crazy at times to passersby but I'm having fun!

The bonus would have been being occupied and not driving to OW's house looking for H.

Good luck with the therapist. Going to the counselor was a first for me too. I find it to be a safe place to talk and usually end up crying (he says that's totally normal) and I always feel at least a little bit better when I leave.