Ok, I made it through yesterday without calling him. Thanks again. I think I haven't shown signs of pursuit for days now, maybe weeks. He is noticing and he actually isn't pursuing me either, which hurts. It's hard that I know in my heart I need to pull back and let my H see what it's like without Vic since he got to totally taking me for granted. I just keep praying to God for strenght and to make a change in me as well as in him.
Yes, my pursuing, begging did nothing for me, and I did plenty of that over these years. Definitely need to do this. I sometimes get so scared of my own weakness for this man.
