Hi, Last night was obviously a full moon because I was totally out of my tree. We had a family issue with our son yesterday and met with school officials. Everything turned out OK, but was stressful!! We came home and talked more with our son.
I naturally assumed that we would have dinner as family. H declared he was going to the gym. So this is where I went out of my tree....I said "I'll go with you! which gym are you going to?" (I only have a single gym membership whereas he can go to any gym in the chain). He wasn't planning on going to the one that I have a membership to because he went there earlier in the day. So I said...Oh...well I am upgrading my membership and went and put tennis shoes on and said "I'm taking a walk why don't you join me?" He said he hates walking around our neighborhood. I said OK...then walked down to the end of the block and came back in the house, brought in the mail. He said I thought you were going on a walk and I said I didn't feel like walking by myself that it was lonely. (PATHETIC!!!). Tried to recruit both kids to go to no avail. Then went out in front of the house and talked my neighbor on my cell phone about nothing in particular. Then my H walked out of the house, asked who I was talking to and said he would be right back. Meanwhile I am thinking in my mind..."He is going to see HER!". He left, I got in my car, managed to cut my hand which was bleeding all over the place,and drove to where she lives KNOWING his car would be there. Well...I got there and it WAS NOT there. Feeling relieved and completely idiotic, I started to drive home and he called and told me he was at Sbucks and asked if I wanted him to bring me some coffee. NICE! So I got home before he did, and he did bring me coffee and we watched TV together.
I am not this person and it is really making me mad! I can't believe I am doing the things I am doing. What a backslide in behavior. I'll blame it on the full moon!!!
Anyway, I see a therapist today for the first time in my life. Not sure what to expect but am hoping for the best.
