hey nds....i woke up today thinking about your sitch. After the past 2 days of he!! with my H - my mind turned to you.
You "get" it. You made the turn-around, she sees it - may not think she can trust it yet...but she sees it.
You have all the good qualities of a relationship that I've listed above.
The ONLY thing I see you still doing, is waiting. You're waiting.
My H says that ALL the time, "I'm just WAITING for a sign from you...I'm just WAITING for you to come to me" and I wanted to make it a point to put it on this board, and it's kinda deep - so bear with me:
What are we waiting for? Are we waiting for our sitches to mold into the ideal outcome we have imagined in our brain? I think it's too much pressure on ourselves if we do.
All we have control over is right NOW. That's it. Screw the past. It's done. We may not have a bit of future. God may pluck us off the planet in the next five minutes...who knows?
SO! The ONLY thing under our control is Right Now. So worrying about our future does nothing but stress us out.
We just need to live, to be...take each moment and make it as good as it can be, and be grateful for it. [Sidenote funny: I've said this to H before and he takes as me meaning the 70's mindset of Peace, Free Love, Free Sex. - CRACK me up - *sarcasm* Yeah...In your head now I'm not only having an A! I'm a flowerchild that believes in Free Love!!]
