Ok, last night I knew something needed to happen so I went out & rented Fireproof. My thoughts on the movie itself was that the acting was horrible & the movie seemed very "B movie-ish," however, I guess it did it's job.

He, of course, asked why did you specifically rent THAT movie tonight.

I told him I just don't feel like things are right right now. I asked if he was talking to someone else. He swore that there isn't anyone else & I do believe that.

I know he loves me & cares a lot about me. I also know that maybe a lot of it is thinking about the past. I don't dwell on it, but sometimes it does still come out in me & I know I have never really dealt w/ it, but I don't think I know exactly how to put it away completely.

Ok, so I'm thinking things are just going to improve from here. I know I have a lot of work to do, but that's life & we all know how much "work" an M takes.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10