mules...I face the same thing as you. I am approaching the separation point and loss of my kids. I think it is why I am having my backslide this month. It cannot be escaped and I cannot run from it.
As for court, nervous is OK. DON'T BE AFRAID. This isn't a jail sentence and you are NOT going to lose your kids. Relax. Find a nook to sit down with a book or crossword puzzle. If you speak with the judge, be respectful..say good morning....and DO NOT TRY TO EXPLAIN THINGS. Answer distinctly....respectfully...no emotions involved and don't try and do any implication stuff. I guess you know the shtick.
Prepare for some bad times/backslides. I've been so great up 'til now. It is becoming more real for me....and the loss of time with my kids is getting closer as my W's anger ramps up weekly towards me. Stay strong in your own sitch.
FIB
Thanks FIB - I totally get the backslides. IDK - we don't really talk much any more. Thanks for the advice about court - I will keep that in mind. My W changed lawyers yesterday and the one she picked practices right next to the courthouse. So I'm sure that is not to my advantage!
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.
