Slowly but surely - detach and 180

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Wow this is so difficult keeping my mouth shut. I can't stop thinking about them and pictures of them together keep popping into my head.

My friend told me I have to stop thinking about the Why's and How's and she is totally right but that is easier said than done. I want to know how it started and why. So many questions. I know I will never get answers. I right them all down in my journal and I now hide my journal under my mattress so she can't find it. If she has been lying so much I'm sure she is probably snooping too.

I just wish I could sit down with her and say W I know that you and OW have been sleeping together for 4 months. And then see what she tells me. She would probably be very relieved to have it out.

But I can't do anything until she signs the papers because we have to keep everything amicable.

-Catherine