Thanks to (((Hope, Davidswife, CIW and Karen))). I really needed those words from you all. It was a really tough week last week. I don't know why, nothing drastic happened. It just was that way.
I am in a MUCH MUCH better place mentally now. Thank you to you all for pulling me out of my misery when I needed it the most. I would still be there if it weren't for your support, caring hearts and friendship.
Davidswife is right, this too shall pass. It's key to remember that. Everything passes.
A good friend of mine called me this week and Her friend's H just passed away. My friend suspects that it was suicide but cannot confirm yet.
It got me thinking. My friend's friend would give up almost anything to have a fight with her H. I am very very blessed and fortunate to be healthy, able and my H is here to fight with me. Death is the most final. Everything else is negotiable. I am telling myself to take a look at the bigger picture and not get too bogged down on the little details and forget my promise to myself. That is to fight for my M, have patience, compassion and love the man I married. It doesn't mean be a doormat but just means that it's not over til it's over. And even then it's not over till one of us is dead.
It's still early days. I am telling myself I should not give up just yet when the heat of the A is still burning. Wait a while, till the flames dies, then we'll see where we are.
Just a thought. Hoping for the best.
BTW, had to call H early this week about some admin stuff. He sounded cheerful and soft, much like the old H. Not the 'this is a business call' voice on the phone. It was nice. But not banking on anything. Just nice.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
