The guys showed up! Hungry Snakes association!! LOL! Except these particular guys are not that hungry, right Tomato?
Anyway, Rob, I didnt get upset by you. Honestly. It was a surprise for me to see you reminding me to do something, you KNOW I have been doing. I never stopped actually. It started motivated by guilt, then as a valuable learning process. I like myself...
You know what? I havent streched it here, it's something my C repeated to me yesterday and she has told H and she said it on Sat to both of us. She said "for whatever reasons, IMO, as a result of trying to find balance, M has been supporting this relationship almost 100% on her own. She was getting nothing from you H, and when she got tired, the relationship collapsed". The interesting thing is H agreed to that. Of course I dont accept the fact that it is my fault because I gave 100% as she says to me. I understand it wasnt right for ME, but I dont know how you can accuse someone for giving his best? But still, it feels good to hear that. And you know what they say: he who works makes mistakes, the one that doenst, never makes any.
I am feeling better. VERY VERY sad. I know all of you have felt like this before or still are. I am no exception. I am crying, laughing, joking, crying again... It's a familiar process. We have had no contact since Monday night. He is supposed to tell me if he accepts the money I asked and all the rest I requested. If he does, I sign the separation agreement, he does too, and we file. End of 2009 I will be divorced..., again!
