Fib, of course you still find it difficult. This is not how you thought your life was going to be. You are living in a very uncomfortable situation and your children are hurting. Add to that, the drama that continues with your w.
I am sorry that it is this way for you, my friend. I think you are going to be feeling the fallout from this for awhile. You still have your kids that will connect you to her forever.
I hope and pray that in time she will realize that they are the most important thing, that she must find a way to be the mother they deserve and that the best thing she can give them in the future is a civil relationship with you.
Hang in there. There is light at the end of the tunnel for you, I just know it.
