I had Al Anon today and it was good. It's always good.
I have been feeling positive lately anyway since I have some things going on business wise, and I am starting to feel like the person I once was. Today we talked a lot about making the decision to turn our lives over to God, as we understand him. It was an interesting topic. Before all this, I thought I understood God. lol. Now I am beginning to have a much more personal understanding of God, that isn't based on others' expectations of me.
I used to to get so upset I couldn't even pray the Serenity Prayer out loud because I couldn't get through the first part without crying...to accept the things I cannot change...because the things I cannot change were crushing me. I'm beginning to realize that I've had a lot of things backwards about what things I can change and what I can't...which is why the end says, "and the wisdom to know the difference."
Also...reading other people's posts has had something swirling in my mind that came to the fore today. Especially STTRF (hugs if you're reading)...and the comments from people saying I WON'T ABANDON HIM. I've had that for a battle cry more than once in my life. Ugh. Lovers, friends...anyone who needs me.
For once I am going to say I AM NOT GOING TO ABANDON ME!!
