Oh my goodness. I don't really "know" you, but this is a strange place where amazing bonds can be made. With that, I do feel a bond with you. With that, SNAP OUT OF IT. HE made the mistake. Not you. He may be going places now, but you have to travel a road before you realize it's a dead end. Sometimes you can't see that far ahead and you make the mistake of going in the wrong direction. Give him time to figure it out, hit that dead end and do a U-Turn. The other thing I wish you wouldn't close yourself off to is the possibility of meeting new people....and I don't mean men, but new people, new friends. A new social life can help clear out the cob webs.