Update: I backslid. W came to the house on Sunday to have dinner with me and the kids. She tells me that she has not given up on us and that we will try everything we can before we say the M is over. She still wants to move into an apartment(right now she is staying at a friend's house). That if she comes home she will be miserable. I asked her what that means and she says it will be like it always has been. She says that she is confused and doesn't know who she is. I didn't really respond to any of it.
On a positive note she actually asked me how my job was going and she told me that she is still attracted to me. She hasn't really asked anything about me in over a month. I've talked in the past with her about me going back to school for Accounting. She brought it up and is encouraging me to do it. It just confuses me that she sees me as her closest friend, she loves me, and is still very attracted to me but doesn't know that she still wants to be married to me?????
Another positive note: She has set up her IC to start this week. Our MC says she has a lot of issues to deal with before we can even begin with the M issues. I was afraid she would back out. I've been gently encouraging her instead of nagging like I did in the past and she has actually expressed appreciation for how I'm handling it.
At this point I am not going to fight her on moving into an apartment. I know if I do she will run even faster. I willmake sure we set up guidelines for the seperation though. Anything else I could or should be doing? Most days I feel strong somedays like today I feel lost. Patience Patience Patience
