You have written my exact same thoughts....Thank you!!
Please find comfort knowing you are not alone....
It's really hard to be alone and feeling the loss. I too wish I had made better choices and been more grateful and loving for the wonderful H and marriage I had. I too took it all for granted. I am not responsible for H's OW and the choices he continues to make. I have huge regrets, but I don't deserve what is happening to me. I too want to find happiness again, I am not sure I could have another relationship either. One thing for certain though is this situation has taught me a world lessons I would not otherwise had the opportunity to experience. For that alone I am a better person. Perhaps a long time from now I will want someone in my life, I am certainly not going to rush it.....
You know, one glass of wine won't hurt ya!!!!!!
After a "day in our life" a little wine helps to relax the soul, it's ok to partake a glass, enjoy the relaxation, you've earned it.
Like one of my best friends say "Make It a Good Day", take care...
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11