Just found out wife filed

[RobD70]

So far nothing new. I'm no longer fighting reality, she choose the OM over me and her moving in with him the second time is the straw that broke the camel's back. I am done with her.

I don't think about her 24/7 like I use to and when I do think of her it's all negative. I don't believe a word she says and I'm disgusted by the fact she choose a 60 yr man over me. I also no longer think she's a good person but instead someone who's consumed about her self image and only does good things so people won't think badly of her. She is a selfish, spoiled brat and I now believe I am much better off without her. At the end of the day, she isn't any different than any other woman. I had idealized her but now I see how wrong that was.

I'm not interested in getting into another R anytime soon. This is new to me since I rarely go very long w/o a girlfriend but now I am going solo for a while. I don't want to deal with someone else's issues and trying to impress them. Outside of sex, I really don't have any motivation.

I don't like feeling this way. I wish I could say I loved my W unconditionally and want what's best for her but I can't. She's giving me so many false promises and her behavior makes me just sick. Here I am stuck at my brother's place and she's living the high life with her sugar daddy. She can rot in hell for all I care.

I'm seeing the IC next week. I'm just going to use her to vent since I have been holding back from friends and family so they think I have it all together. I have so much anger built up I feel I can explode at any time.

I thought I was better than this. I thought she was better than this too.