I am not having a complete "filming" just the lower parts..
I have my appt. Tomorrow
I did have my talk with W. I went over two things with her.. I had to fill out some paper work for the P.D on my "death in the line of duty" forms... Who I wanted notified, what I wanted done with my body, who I wanted presented with the flag from my coffin.. Weird stuff to think about. She was receptive to our talk. I then told her about what the doctor wanted. I told her I was going in for my "Camera shots" on Wednesday.. I told her I signed up for a Quit smoking Class (again). THIS time she seemed more interested. Last time I told her I was going to try to quit she said " Great..(Sarcastily) now does this mean I am going to have to start encouraging you?" Then I told her about my prostrate problems. I did tell her that the doctor asked some very embarrassing questions about how our sex life was. I did tell her it was very uncomfortable talking about this being in our situation. I did not tell wife I did not tell the doctor the truth... But all in all the conversation went well. I did not get a chance to do my love dare which I was planning on doing during this conv.:
Determine to guard your mate's secrets (unless they are dangerous to them or to you) and to pray for them. Talk with your spouse, and resolve to demonstrate love in spite of these issues. Really listen to them when they share personal thoughts and struggles with you. Make them feel safe.
I was going to work into the conv. that what ever happened between us in the past in the past. And it is between US. I want to move on and I hope she does also... But I did not get a chance. She did inform me that she will be losing her job at the end of the week. We knew this was a temp job but I did see how it did help her feel better having a job. It helped with the feeling of self worth..
So I am going to take tomorrow off.. (Getting ready for my camera shoot)
And today's dare:
Prepare a special dinner at home, just for the two of you. The dinner can be as nice as you prefer. Focus this time on getting to know your spouse better, perhaps in areas you've rarely talked about. Determine to make it an enjoyable evening for you and your mate.
I left a note on out message board that I was making dinner tonight. Although son will be with us I am still going to all the way with some flowers, candles, wine and I was thinking of making stuff salmon.. I know son may eat in his game room. If he does or when he it through and wife and I are alone at the table I will tell her about how I have forgiven what has happened and want to move on. I will ask her about how she feels And just take it from there.
One last thing. Last night when I was going to bed. I said good night to son (and added "You are my favorite son" he is my only son) Then as I passed wife's Office / bedroom I said good night to her and then added (You are my favorite wife... so far) and she replied.. .... "You always say that....good night"
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
