I think your assessment is spot on as I think W looks for that excitement outside of the M but keeps hold of me as her security blanket.
I think for now, W and I need to have that conversation which she has been avoiding for the past 2 years, the one that I just let slide in the hope that things would work out for us. We need to talk this out to see where we are going or at the very least to set boundaries. The problem is I can't force her to talk and she just avoids any issues like that. So I have left her with the thought that we need to talk but I haven't pushed it further.
GFI,
I just feel sooooh weary.
PS: funny thing this morning, I fully expected W to withdraw and not talk to me but she was the opposite, she started making small talk about decorating the small bedroom and something else which I didn't really listen to. I think she was just taking a temperature test of my mood. Not that it makes much difference.
