Thank you so much for all your posts. I have been away for a few days; I needed to take a holiday so I went up to Scotland with a friend. It was really good to just take a break and get a change of scene. Coming back was a little difficult - I do find that house slightly depressing now but I am seeing it as a means to an end. I need to stay there really till the end of the year before I leave for my travels. So hopefully there will be an offer some time in the summer.
One of the things on my list is to re-train in a new profession so I am about to book an introductory course in Music Therapy - something I have been considering for a while to see if I like it. It is a scary prospect as it means I will have to become a full time student again and I'm not sure how achievable it is going to be but anything is possible right? I shall see how the weekend course goes in April.
There has been no reply to my email to h. Funny, I read somewhere once in newcomers that someone commented that it is amazing how friendly and amenable the WAS becomes when they are getting their own way. I will resend it again tonight and just put a note at the top saying 'just in case you didn't receive this'.
At the weekend I will pack all his stuff and put it into boxes. I will then ask him to arrange a time when he can come and get it. If I am going to be in this house for a while longer I may as well make it mine. I am finding that I am still replaying stuff/ events in my head but I am trying to stop. I'm actually finding it is when I am stressed about other stuff that it becomes more apparent. I'm sure that with time it will pass. I am also having vivid dreams about telling people I am divorced/ separated when they ask. Maybe that will help me prepare for the real time.
(((Samina))) thank you for stopping by. I was thinking about you the other day. You should start a thread...
(((Lisa))) Lets meet up really soon. I'm not at choir tonight as I have a trustees meeting - bleugh! I have a feeling that crazy doctor woman is going to be acting like a mosquito!
(((Ms M))) You words were really helpful about the reasons not being valid. You are right our marriages were short (although with h's illness I kind of felt like a lifetime in one year) and I'm sure time will heal. I have learnt so much from this.
(((Kassie))) Thank you for your support. I'll see you in that cyber pub I'm sure!
(((Dan))) Thank you there have been some transformations along this journey.
(((W2G))) So lovely to 'see' you again. I hope you are ok!
I'll see you in that cyber pub I'm sure! 