I feel really cut up inside and I didn't sleep too well last night, but after all what I've been through I think I'll be able to hold it together on the outside.
John you're probably right and I don't think I'm done, it will probably take W to pull the cord to end things, but I'm tired of being the one fighting for this M and I can slowly feel my self esteem being stripped away. On the other hand I feel now that I can say a lot of things that I've held back on so if W feels strongly enough about our M we'll survive what I say if not them we'll go under.
I'm gonna take a few more sound bites from trusted friends and see where that takes me, I'll probably post more details when I get my head together tonight.
