The Flames are Still Rising....

[blindsided1]

Okay...FG, SO2, ST... I need some 2 X 4's. I can't stop looking at HIS FB page. It doesn't make me upset, so much. I just want to let it go. So, please bring the 2X4's on. It's stupid. All his "friends" are her family....they're totally oblivious...whatever. Wait!!!! Stopping myself from travelling down the road of pain. I think I am doing better. But, some days....I just fish. Fishing SUCKS.

I texted him tonight to remind him that day care is due Friday. Didn't require a response. Just a reminder and a thank you..Goodnight. Obviously, I didn't get a response. But, I'm FINE with it. Wow, is that growth? Is it growth that I don't really miss him? Part of me feels scared, part feel sad, part feels stressed, part is unhappy. WTF? I suppose this is normal, right? I am hoping that I am getting OVER HIM. But, part of me is still hoping that there is hope...what a mental conflict....but, if I can lose my love for him an get over this...my life can only get better, right? Someone...anyone...tell me this is good. Because I am second guessing...FG!!!!! help me.