Just keep swimming...PH #5

[pearlharbr]

I spoke too soon. The email just came through:

For over eight years when we were together I was honest with you, I didn't lie to you - for two months, I did and I very much regret it and would do anything I could to re-live that time. You can't judge the eights years, or my whole life on the mistakes I've made over two months. NOW I say I lied, because NOW I’m being honest with you as I have been for most of the time I’ve known you. I believe I am an honest person by nature, but I have made mistakes, ones I will never make again.

I am not asking you to trust me now, I’m asking you to give me time and a chance to earn the trust back.

I want to communicate with you – I have learned through this experience that I need to communicate with you (and not someone else) and I need to do a better job of it. I will be better at it if given the chance.

I can’t take back what has happen and it will probably haunt me for a long time, but I have grown and learned from this experience and will be a better person for it.

As for her, if you are willing to seriously talk, I will tell you anything you want to know, but she is aware I still have feelings for you.

My initial reaction is - aha, so you are still seeing her and just trying to see if I'll take you back before you end things with her. I'm insulted.

I really just want to shoot back:

Unless and until you prove to me that you have ended your affair we have nothing to discuss.

But I am smarter than that. Now begins the 24-hour cooling off period before any response. I'm off to catch up with my favorite rock star!