thanks, my recovery does come quick. The pain mostly is the rethinking that she just walked away without a second thought. that is what hurts and will hurt for a while. I am very focused on myself, things are going on with a possible new job and as I psoted it is number one on my new years resolution. She has been weird lately, kids have noticed her trying to contact/cvonnect with them more. they tell me it is whatever. They really don't seem to be warming up to her. I have decided trying to seek or win the attention of someone else is out of the picture. opportunity came and I blew it away. I have decided to be me and hang out with people who like to have my company. My strength has been remarkable, and I mean it. I am amazed. At 21 days i was rock ready to rumble, then she calls and then the next day. Its always about money so I see no signs in this contact, no conenction, no emotion and no nothing. I recite a few mantras to myself and basically talk myself in from the ledgfe as it were. It helps alot. Being so heavily focused on my life right now is where I want to be. Day 6, limited thoughts of her, just the how could she not feel anything after all the time together, and then I tell myself, it is what it is, questioning her actions , I might as well ask for the winning mega millions numberxs LOL....Godd hearing from you how is your deal going?
