Hey Jeff.. yes, it might not pass though! eek. Fingers crossed it does.

Hey Lisa! Ha, Newquay is a sh*thole! Thats where BMF lives, Cher hates going out there as she runs into his ex's! She is insisting we go out tommorow, either a nice fish restaurant or some comedy (cant find any, this is sticksville!), so thats sweet of her. Natch is "naturally", natch! Yes, I know my ex is not emotionally connected to her, but its still wierd to get such a moaney, self involved email to the woman you cruelly dumped 15 months ago with no explanation, the night before her birthday! But, I had a brilliant night at Tang Soo Do.. me and GLM still studiously avoiding each other, but by god he is gorgeous. Ohh.. the sweat glistening on his chest rug and his pyjama outfity thingy sticking to him... ok.. STOP THAT !!!! hahaha

Hey Cyrena.. thankyou SO MUCH for your post. I felt a bit odd earlier but it is very helpful the way you calmly explain it, you are always the voice of reason! I agree it would take a long time to truly fix it, it took a year of talking after my EA to fix that (I realised yesterday I have already succesfully done piecing!), but mainly, we focused on the now, but also made plans and bought a house.. so I know how it works.. whther he is capable of admitting his guilt and what he did, as I had to.. and then facing all my questions and be able to provide reassurances endlessly, as I did then.. who knows. Wait and see if he dumps Helen first!

Thanks for noticing I am doing better and more self contained. detached.. I think so too. Time heals us all in the end hey! And GLM's hairy chest helps.. ;\)